Until when will this agony last?
Until when do I have to tolerate this torture when I have not harmed anyone?
The more you make me suffer, the more I am attracted to you
You keep hurting me, but I never complain
Just treat me fairly for once.

Why do people fail us so hard...

....When we are the ones with the hearts of gold?

...It seems as though all around me many of my friends are suffering from broken hearts...fickle, false-hearted friends and just...terrible people in general. >_>;

...Is there a reason this is happening all at the same time? To us, of all people?

We are the 'nice' ones...the 'kind', 'compassionate' types...and not to mention, the 'doormats'. We live to make our precious persons happy... So it is no surprise that we are generally mistrusting at first, taking a grand time to open our hearts to the prospect of a new relationship, platonic or otherwise. But when we finally get to open our hearts, we love fiercely.

...And then all of a sudden, seemingly overnight...our precious persons turn on us somehow. An abrupt, unforeseen change of the tide. We have no idea why. We have done nothing to deserve it. Without warning, they become obdurate and cold. No matter how much love and understanding we give, we end up receiving the short end of the stick. We give an unending amount of self-sacrifice to make the person happy...hoping that by showing love, we can inspire them to do the same. It is what we do for the people we hold dear, in order to maintain the peace, and we cross our fingers to hope for the better. We continue to debase ourselves to appease to them, even when they are not deserving, simply because we are terrified at the prospect of losing them forever again. In the end, we give a ton only to receive an ounce. Sometimes we blame ourselves, then to realize that we were not at fault at all. We adhere to the Japanese virtue of putting the desires of others before your own, but we never realize that we are actually devaluing ourselves until after.

...And the worst thing is...no matter what you say, or what you wish to say to make them understand...more than likely, they never will understand....Or even care. It is perhaps what hurts the most.

...No matter how much energy we expend to fix and reclaim what we desire and fix loose ends...

...we fail, just to realize that what we were holding on to was never there in the first place.

...When they said that 'Nice Guys finish last', they really were not kidding, were they? XD

Mell. I am so sorry about all of this, my love...I will be there for you soon...I love you.

*Nice Guy Pose* ^_^b ...It's a promise!


seasonal friend

"People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime.
When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly. Theyhave come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you withguidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, orspiritually.

Theymay seem like a godsend, and they are. They are there for the reasonyou need them to be. Then, without any wrong doing on your part or atan inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring therelationship to an end.
Sometimesthey die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out toforce you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need hasbeen met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done.
It is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON,it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They maybring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach yousomething you have never done. They usually give you an un- believableamount of joy. Believe it! It is real!
But only for a season.

LIFETIMErelationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must buildupon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is toaccept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway); and put what youhave learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. "


...Lawl. That fails to make me feel better. XD Thanks, Jess. ^_^b

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