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Jan. 2nd, 2008 07:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
Well...Imagine.
...Now that I look at how I am doing in a situation like mine, I guess I can safely say that I've matured quite a bit since i was...You know, 16 or so...
...Because if such things were happening then, I certainly would have been depressed all over again.
Instead, I think I feel...a bit fazed. Angry. Angry at the fact that I am under an enormous amount of pressure to abide by my parents desires, and they are hardly helping me with it.
...Then, if I am unable to fulfill these desires, which, again...are not mine, I get the punishment.
...
Things could be so much worse. At least my marriage is not arranged, too. It's only a matter of time. >_>
...Now that I look at how I am doing in a situation like mine, I guess I can safely say that I've matured quite a bit since i was...You know, 16 or so...
...Because if such things were happening then, I certainly would have been depressed all over again.
Instead, I think I feel...a bit fazed. Angry. Angry at the fact that I am under an enormous amount of pressure to abide by my parents desires, and they are hardly helping me with it.
...Then, if I am unable to fulfill these desires, which, again...are not mine, I get the punishment.
...
Things could be so much worse. At least my marriage is not arranged, too. It's only a matter of time. >_>
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Date: 2008-01-03 12:22 am (UTC)anything you'd like to rant at me about? ^^; You've got my msn contact, if you would like to rant.
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Date: 2008-01-04 05:22 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-06 02:14 pm (UTC)Well, I understand parental issues and the whole abiding by desires thing ^^; They're sparing me from the dorama of arranged marriage, but I see my cousins being arranged to marry people and it makes me cringe a little.
I should really talk to you again! x__x I miss talking to you too D: I swear, the next time I see you online and we're both free, talking shall be done! xD;
<3
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Date: 2008-01-04 05:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2008-01-03 06:19 am (UTC)That sounds... bad. I want to tell you to live your life how you want, but I don't know the entire situation to say a blanket statement like that... =_=
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Date: 2008-01-03 06:24 am (UTC)...Well...yes, I agree...and this is what I'm trying to do...you know? But...just...forced.
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Date: 2008-01-04 04:10 am (UTC)Well, all you can do is try your best! がんばれよ!
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Date: 2008-01-04 05:21 am (UTC)As for now, I've tried my best. I just have to take another path until some miracle comes around, yep.
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Date: 2008-01-04 04:47 am (UTC)One must think that having them is so much better than the alternative... though it's easy to forget sometimes. ^^; As for marriage, or any other life path for that matter, it takes so much more than 'arrangement'. Heh... it took forever for my mother to accept that I might go out with someone she hadn't thoroughly investigated first. Pressure from society to parents to people like us... it skews the whole process unless one or more people involved have the backbone to tell society to go hang if necessary, because these things happen in their own time and in their own way, if they are to be handled for the best.
*/rant*..gah, I wish I could get on AIM. As the Fifth Doctor said to Tegan, brave heart.
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Date: 2008-01-04 05:18 am (UTC)Especially my mother...There's no forgetting that....This is not necessarily just...societal expectations...but it really is just my parents. If I did not value their opinion so much - or, wait, If I did not want to be seen as some sort of disgrace, then...of course - I would pay no heed to what society expects..