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ichibandasaiWell...Imagine.
...Now that I look at how I am doing in a situation like mine, I guess I can safely say that I've matured quite a bit since i was...You know, 16 or so...
...Because if such things were happening then, I certainly would have been depressed all over again.
Instead, I think I feel...a bit fazed. Angry. Angry at the fact that I am under an enormous amount of pressure to abide by my parents desires, and they are hardly helping me with it.
...Then, if I am unable to fulfill these desires, which, again...are not mine, I get the punishment.
...
Things could be so much worse. At least my marriage is not arranged, too. It's only a matter of time. >_>
...Now that I look at how I am doing in a situation like mine, I guess I can safely say that I've matured quite a bit since i was...You know, 16 or so...
...Because if such things were happening then, I certainly would have been depressed all over again.
Instead, I think I feel...a bit fazed. Angry. Angry at the fact that I am under an enormous amount of pressure to abide by my parents desires, and they are hardly helping me with it.
...Then, if I am unable to fulfill these desires, which, again...are not mine, I get the punishment.
...
Things could be so much worse. At least my marriage is not arranged, too. It's only a matter of time. >_>
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Date: 2008-01-04 05:21 am (UTC)As for now, I've tried my best. I just have to take another path until some miracle comes around, yep.